...And Keep Her.

I am trying. I really am.

But the waterworks began today when we were getting ready to say goodbye to the babies and they will probably be happening off and on all afternoon.

Ellie seemed sick today.

She kept spitting up and spitting up and was fussy beyond normal baby.

I held her all morning.

I just cant believe that today we say goodbye.

For who knows how long.

I decided to ask the nannies today what Ellie’s real name was, and her birthday.

They said they didn’t know her birthday.

And that since she hadn’t been here long, she doesn’t have a name.

The child doesn’t have a name.

I feel very frustrated because every child deserves a name.

Shes a person (and a beautiful one at that!) and she deserves to be something, not just another “it” to feed and change and dress.

I keep trying to remember that the Lord knows her.

The Lord knows her name, he knows her birthday, her future family, everything about her.

Right now it just hurts.

The Lord bless her and keep her...