Checking In!

Remember how at the beginning of the year, I resolved to blog more?

...here we are at the end of March...

Oh well, the other things I resolved to do are going better!

Not perfect, but that's okay.

We have been up to our ears in busy life!

Colton is thriving at home, healthy and growing.

....sleeping through the night?...well, not so much.

Landon and Emmett love being brothers.

We are still fostering, and we love it!

Last night was finally date night, and we saw a concert and ate dinner at Ballpark Village.

Chad also recently reached a goal for work, which is wonderful!

I am working, planting seeds for the garden, and have started on my quilt.

Life is full.

And we are so blessed!

LCC's First Annual Pinewood Derby!

Final car check before registration.

Doughnut and Koolaid for breakfast...because aunts and uncles are supposed to bend the rules a little!

I caught his smile after the first win!

He won second place!

Team "LandonandChad"

The Rainbows with their cars!

Proud family!
 

We were SO proud of him!

Colton Update #2 (And Some Thoughts About It)

We knew today would be a worse day for Colton...

...but waking up to hear that he was put on a ventilator overnight was not expected.

The emotions are high on all sides.

Colton is not a fan of the mask, and it looks so so sad!

I think we are all feeling emotionally exhausted and I know personally, my patience is wearing thin.

The longer he is sick and the worse he gets, the harder it is to praise and trust God.

This morning, I was honestly angry with God.

My thoughts were somewhere along the lines of, "God, you could snap your fingers and Colton could be healed. Why are You making him suffer? Why are You making his family suffer? Why is this sickness lasting so long? Why does so much of his life being spent between 4 hospital walls? Hello? What are you doing here? How could you?!"

Yeah, completely wrong and blasphemous. I know.

Not a place for my heart to be hiding.

But not a place that I haven't been in before.

A few weeks ago in church the point was brought up that we may never see the "why" in this lifetime.

And we aren't entitled to it.

Just like since Colton was born into a sinful world, and unfortunately as much as I wish he was, he is not entitled to an easy first month on Earth.

God is still in control and He is on His throne.

While we may wonder the specifics of why specifically this had to happen to sweet Colton, we know ultimately, God WILL be glorified through it all.

And that's what I've decided to try to cling to.