A Rare note from Chad

The last several weeks have been rough, but in the midst of all that has gone on I wanted to share how God has used one song specifically to minister to me.  My continued prayer is that God would use our story right now to help others grow closer to him.

Thy Will by Hillary Scott

This song has ministered to me so much in the last several weeks! I find myself coming back to it over and over again. It comes on the radio what seams like every time I am in the car.

The first verse of this song really hit home to me two and a half weeks ago when we found out the devastating news that Amy had miscarried our first babies.

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done

I felt like I could relate so much to the lyrics of this song.  I did not know at the time that Hillary Scott actually wrote this song as a letter to God following a miscarriage of her own. I encourage you to listen to how this song came to be below.

After hearing her heart behind the song and why she shared it with everyone I felt I should take a step out in boldness and share our story from my view and that maybe by me sharing my heart it will help someone else.  So here is me trying to be bold for you God!

Today I heard this song and it ministered to me in a whole new way. This time the second verse is what stood out.

On top of the grieving process my plate continues to get more added to it. When all I want to do is escape all the noise, life gets louder.

Professionally the stress levels are higher than ever with major changes taking place due to new regulations.  To add to the personal, yesterday I was the 4th car in a 5 car accident on highway 270. God's Angle's were around me as I drove away with minimal damage to the front and rear of the car and what I thought was no medical issues.

Through-out the day my neck began to hurt turning into a head ache. By evening when I got home from work it was time to got get checked out to make sure it wasn't more serious. After 5 hours in the urgent care and then Emergency room I was released and told I would just be very sore from the whip lash. As I am trying to process this all and understand why, I keep coming back to the second verse of this song.

I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am NOT
So

God help me to Stop and remember that you're God and I am Not, you think of things, I could never think about. Help me to count it all as Joy and make sense of all your promises.

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

Your plans are for me

Goodness you have in store

I know you hear me

I know you see me, Lord

Your plans are for me

Good news you have in store